Its 3.06 am

lying down on my bed thinking if I should message her and tell her how I feel since I so believe in doing things at the moment , tapping on the phone wondering how this silly heart of mine can fall for a person so deeply again and again .

With bright light emitting from the phone , a sudden tear drop and the urge to write this down just to remember how my feelings are at this moment overwhelmed me. I guess such thoughts have been running through my mind lately especially at such hours .

While I am coughing, can't breathe, feeling sickly and feeling so empty, still I choose to be alone now . Is it so hard to accept someone? Hurting again is unbearable but love is too much a happiness to forgo .There may be cynics and unbelievers but seriously it's our heart and not theirs to decide what we can or not do. So I choose to be myself. Don't believe in love, I don't care. Life will still be wonderful without these kind of people.

I sincerely believe true love can happen but without the other to believe in it too, it will never happen T_T .

Anyhow, by writing this down, gave me a renewed hope that I can still be myself. So what if one million hearts reject pure love, so long as I continue to give, life then has been meaningful and fruitful. Hey, there may be people out there now who think romance is underrated and extinct or worst chasing after an ideal love that are all in their dreams. Why can't they just accept that the imperfection in love is what makes love so much more exciting and worth going after.

I'd rather live every second in my life with love than to be bitter and wasting every second away being hurt. You gain so much more energy giving love than being hateful.Have passion for everything we do and you'll never live any less ever again. I can sleep again. 3.22am.